Friday, February 24, 2006

Caves

There are so many choices that run through my head but how do I sort through them? Can I figure anything out...I have to constantly paint to see what will emerge from my hands. Because what I paint could change the world. I'll have to sketch and sketch before masterpieces are invented.

There is so much to explore in my mind that I have to constantly run through it. I have so many desires that it becomes like exploring cave after cave. All with caveman art all over them that I want to figure out what they say. But then I have to move on because the caves go on forever and I will never move if I stay trying to decipher each drawing and grab hold of every single meaning.
Carry a torch to reveal the art, carry a light so I don't trip and fall.

The poet David says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires in your heart". I guess I have to start here. Don't get confused by the miles ahead, just start here. Don't worry about falling down, just start running. Don't try and stop because there's so much more.

Maybe one day I'll show everyone these caves. People will be in awe, and it will reveal to them that they have caves of their own. So much to explore, why stop where you are? Don't try to understand everything. I'm a pioneer.
(if this doesn't make any sense then you don't have to read it or like it)

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I am a superhero

I am dressed like Clark Kent but I am really Superman. I am a superhero with powers that are dormant. It's hard to learn what your powers are, then on top of that to find out how to use them.

This explains why I am frustrated with regular circumstances. Why should I pretend to be ordinary when the whole time I have the power to change my surroundings. The best way to function is to be who God created me to be. To hide under civilian clothes the whole time is fake.

Regularity frightens me because it's not who I am. If I don't use my superpowers then I am a lousy superhero. There is something in me waiting to react to my initiative. Then it will take over and life will no longer be the same.

The planet you put your feet on can look completely different. But only if you are willing to become who you are made to be.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I don't know.

I don't know. But I will keep going. I don't know any answers, But I'll try to find out. I don't know anything I've ever thought I've known. I don't even know if I can find out any answers. Because all I ever get is more questions.

So I'll just keep going and never know any answers. Just more questions. I don't understand how that really works but there are always more questions. I never know anything. Why try to figure out anything.

I am questioned out. There are no solid answers. The more I try to figure out the more I don't know.

Meaningless, Meaningless....everything is meaningless. -Solomon

Friday, February 03, 2006

born creativity, heart beat, blood...real creativity

So LA is full of traffic. People are in the same city but so far apart from each other. Driving to get somewhere in LA and somewhere in life. Where are they going?
Once again I am no longer in a secure place. Buildings and roads swallow me whole, trying to blend in the whole human race to look the same. But inside each person is born creativity, heart beat, blood... real creativity.
Mosaic feels this. I am here at Mosaic for a small piece of life. I am here to change the setting in the way i can. Sparks of electric creative conversation come from my lips. I don't want to be a someone who sits around waiting for the clock to change. I will move and change the time, my time that I've been given.
2 months is probably not the time it takes for me to change this place but enough for it to change me. I just realized that It might be the same way with life...I might not be here long enough to change the whole world but long enough to form and change me. i could be wrong.
I need God to change me.

Dan B